“Am I a monster?” she jokingly said, indicating that she certainly
recognized her own amazing physical appearance.
Every man would love to date her, or some might find her too
attractive. I was still in my twenties, but realized youth
is not what makes women beautiful. I remember I felt quite embarrassed. That was
a unique experience.
In fact, the more I talked with her, the stronger I got convinced
it was her unimaginably tremendous effort that achieved her beauty. She even
calculated the speed of blinking, angle of her face and every move that
extracted her best appearance, not to mention the art of makeup and haircut.
That was always the topic of conversations with her husband, too.
In short, almost all of her energy, time and resources were
devoted to making her best physical appearance. She was living to look stunning.
I am far from that kind of stoic lifestyle, and admit I’m getting
even lazier. I have lost interest in the search of pretty dresses. I’ve got
some suits and use them like uniforms at work, exchanging shirts only like men
these days. On weekends or holidays I wear T shirts. In fact, the older T
shirts get, the more comfortable they feel, so I even haven’t bought T shirts
recently.
The last things I would buy these days: pretty but uncomfortable shoes
My hair grows very quickly, so I have my haircut every month,
though. I used to buy a lot of anti-aging cosmetics until several years ago,
but recently I kind of give up.
Meanwhile, I come to invest a lot more in the living environment, such as high-end speakers, gardening, a Dyson vacuum cleaner, a sophisticated air conditioner, etc. Priorities are put on comfortableness over physical appearance.
Meanwhile, I come to invest a lot more in the living environment, such as high-end speakers, gardening, a Dyson vacuum cleaner, a sophisticated air conditioner, etc. Priorities are put on comfortableness over physical appearance.
As such, I am getting further from the totally disciplined actress. I really
admire her.
